Ahmong's reply to Camery's email...

Camery was a bit distressed today. Not knowing what to do. All she knows is shes tired of how her lovelife is. Being far away from the one she loves, Ahmong. Shes just gone tired of waiting.

This is Ahmong's letter to camery written in their own dialect.

" Dear Camery,
Hon, pasinsya na nahurot na ang card ko,nya di na sad ko kanunaymagemail kay mutawag nalang ko nimo,ayaw na gud kaguol,ayaw sad paghunahunaug maut para di sad ko maguol diri,miss man sad ka nako ba,ug diliimportante nako kung dako ka,ingon ko nga gusto ko kanunay ka malipay,pero saon ta man nasa layo man ko,hope mosabot unta ka nako sa akong trabaho ngasa layo perme mao man ni ako pangita wala man ko mahimo diha.hinaot ngamosabot ka nako pero dili ingon nga gikalimtan tana ka,mahal gihapon tika,ug gihandom sa kanunay.amping diha kanunay k,tawag lang ko pohon k.

love,
Ahmong"

This gave a smile to Camery's face. But still she's just tired of waiting. Not sure when she could hold on. Ever since Ahmong left from the Philippines Camery has always been sad. Its like someone took your heart away from you. Its like its automn everyday. She wonder's when the sun will rise, when the spring and summer will come.

Will she ever find the love of her life? Its always been a falacy from children's story books she reads back then that everyone has a prince. In reality this is not basically true. Most people just are alone. And thats what she has been in the past three years since he left.

To the reader of this blog. Please pray for Camery to find her hapiness. Shes currently trying to find happiness in other things like work, and friends and family. This might be a selfish question, but why can't be two people just be together though they love each other so much. Why is it not possible for them to end up happy together? Both thinking of how Ahmong's family will feel if he marry's her.

Why can loving be so hard? Even when one is in their right age, has a job, and both have the same faith sometimes it just doesn't work. She's almost giving up. Just so hard to do since Ahmong is Camery's first love.

Life in a matter of Seconds

I didn't realize this day would turn out to be one of those changing moments that I have gone through in life.

It started out to be a very peaceful day for Camery. She woke up at the sound of her alarm thinking of her long distance boyfriend and how he is abroad and if they would end up together. Then she didn't realize the alarm struck the second time so she decided to stand up and take her bath. She took her towel and immediately prepared to go to work to start the day.

When she arrived at work she delightedly greeted everyone good morning with a smile as she always do. Camery is just the typical ordinary girl that you will meet but has a great passion for others.

Being the first aider in the floor, she immediately responded when her office mate received an information that a fellow worker's relative is in critical condition and is in ICU in UST hospital. What coincidence, the patient needs type B+ blood which is the same as hers. She emailed the company nurse and all team leads so they can tell their staff to donate as well.

To cut the story short, she accompanied one of the team leads to the ICU in UST hospital since shes one of the donors too. They had a nice chat about life with the team lead on their way to the hospital not realizing the kind of situation they will expect when they arrive.

At the hospital, the two of them felt so heavy. The patient is an 18 yr old girl named Monica who just had her debut this month. Her office mate was there with heavy eye bags, shaking, and afraid of losing her little sister. Camery just stood there observing the group not knowing what to do whether to comfort someone near. The place was just so full of grief.

How could life after 18 years be so gone and limited this time? This made her think and was reminded life is only borrowed and is a gift we must return. The process of returning it just varies. This is Camery's 5th encounter of someone dying. Each process of encounter she learns something and understands death even more and also life.

After the scene they experienced, they went to the blood bank for the blood donation but was denied and rejected due to she just had her monthly period this week. After this sad news, they went upstairs to just tell the bad news. Not to know it was too late.

Everyone was crying louder this time. Everywhere Camery turns her eyes she saw grief, sadness, and pain of a loss of someone they really treasured. It was a heavy scene. Both the team lead with Camery went back to the workplace sad, silent and in deep thinking of what just happened.

Life is just a four letter word. Yet its free... but it only last for a certain period of time. Camery's thoughts really deepened this time. For she knows she will meet the creator one day. But doesn't know when. She still has time to make her LIFE colorful and without regrets.

That's why she's making sure this day is written so she wont forget.

From this day on, she tries to put in her heart everything she do, care for everyone she meets, and smile... It just is a little effort to smile. But yeah it could make one person's day brighter. Who knows that smile could bring hope, energy and faith that there's something to look forward to each day in Life.

I'm so glad this day happened. Camery went back to the office wondering why God has sent her to go to that place. Now she knows...

Camery doesn't want to face God not knowing what to say of what she has done with her life.

Each day is a new beginning right... and she's starting NOW.