Updates

Im doing midshifts starting next week. This is a good thing. I could at least sleep normally.
Hopefully my period gets normal. Plus I will be transferred to a different team by september just a few months away. So yeah Its a good thing I hope. The new team is reporting day shift so this will definitely favorable. I could have future plans of studying for teaching if I would want to settle in the province someday. Well, its just a back up plan so I could have alternative jobs.

Sorry for the short post. heheheh will talk to you later.

Fragile me

Dear Journal,

Jenilo called last Saturday morning asking me if I could look on some resorts.
I asked him what its for. He answered that he just wants to spend some time with me.
Then he brought up the marriage topic. Asking me not to worry because he will marry me. (But he didn't say when). He also asked if a civil wedding is ok because he still has a lot of things to prepare.

He was giving me some hope. But here I am fragile and afraid to be hurt again as flashes of memories from the last time he proposed haunt me. I was still wishful so I browsed through different wedding sites. Then I realized what if he changes his mind again like before. So I just stopped my search but still saved the files.

December is four months away but is fast approaching. Part of me want to see him but I am scared. I am afraid to hope again and be hurt in the end. This is why as much as possible I push the thought away.

Before I wanted to get married so badly. But why do I feel scared for December to come.
Maybe its because December will determine if its good to stay or move on.

But for the meantime, I have to live from September to November. Let December handle herself. I lift everything to God’s hands. He knows what’s best for me. He knows the desires of my heart.

I have heard news from my uncle that my boyfriend’s grandmother is in Caloocan on one of his Uncle’s place. With her is my bf’s brother. Just a thought flashed, maybe his brother is applying for a job now. Its good but still I wish they could like me like their own daughter. Despite the differences we have. I just wish to have an in law relationship like Ruth and Noemi.

Lets hope for the best

Regards,
Emely

My Little Sister

I have posted some of the pictures on my sister's wedding. The pictures speak for themselves. On that day I never saw her so radiant and happy. I'm glad she found the man God has created to be her partner.

At first when I learned of what happened to her in the previous months, I was alarmed. But I am comforted now after seeing her that day. She is happy and that is what matters.
This is just the beginning of her journey and I am excited for her. I trust God will never forsake her whatever trials she will go through.

The day she got married I wrote her a letter.
She will always be my little sister. The journey I shared with her was not all that easy. But I'm glad she came into my life for it will never be the same without her in it.

We have been through a lot in our childhood. There were quarrels and jealousy. People around us compare us from looks, talents and achievements. She was always been intelligent, talented, and admirable. Nevertheless my being a big sister to her mattered no matter how people bring me down while they bring her up.

It wasn't always quarrel though. We had many sleepless nights where we just waste time talking about our love life, school, and our problems. We seek counsel from each other.

As time passed by, I had to be away from home to find work and separate ways. I missed her then. Every time I go back home our relationship was better. We would try to catch up. Talk over the Internet and through the phone. Technology is really helpful.

I would wish and would want only the best for her.

The Bride

Some casts in My sister's wedding