So far This was Friday 11-21-2008

I bought a special gift for my office mate, which happens to be my Christmas baby for the week. This week it was supposed to be creepy and crispy with a minimum worth of Php 30.00. Sometimes it’s just great to break the rules. (Laughing out loud). I just figured out to make this one special. Its not like I get to have a good excuse to give her something. This was just perfect timing and I take every opportunity to make this world a better place.

Well her birthday happens to be this month so I decided to make it special. I gave her an inspirational book for women where she could pick up tidbits of wisdom each day.
This is me trying to practice the law of attraction in my life.

I thought everything was going to be great. Saturday early morning at work was not such a good day for me. I decided to edit this post due to some memories I dont like to go back to.

But anyways I continued the day with a positive outlook and an expectant thinking of tomorrow's activity in Pansol Laguna.

The Shack

I have been busy the past few days with work and stuffs. Sometimes of the petty disappointments that I have over work, love life, and life in general. You might be wondering why this book is on the picture.

I met someone in the net. He works for the air force and we been talking for two years then. He shared me this book. I actually made my way to Power books and was looking for a copy of Book 4 of the Twilight series, " The breaking dawn".

Then I came over this book and recognized it. I bought it the instant but I didn't read it. It took me another one month to give the book a chance. That chance I had was on the night of November 13, 2008.

I read the book under a lampshade by my bed. Everyone was asleep in the depths of the night except me. Without much thought this book has captured my heart and swept me to tears. It somehow hit me to the core of my heart.

Like the character in the book Mack, I have experienced "The Great Sadness". Quiet a lot of times really that I have allowed myself to be swallowed by grief and hide myself under my own protective invisible cloak that no one could ever penetrate.

First was when daddy died( not my real father), second was that when friends I have seem to go somewhere else far from me, next was when my bf (the person I certainly treat as my other half) finally left for another country leaving me alone. My fear of being alone was great. Without my notice I have placed a barge around my heart that no one could fully enter.

I just realized while reading this book. The reason why he had allowed this things to happen to me was that maybe I wasn't alone after all. He been there all along waiting to be noticed by me.
He wants me to be totally dependent to HIM to be in total union with Him. I miss that bond.

The book says a part where Mack questioned Jesus where he was when he needed him. Jesus said we were there right beside you and we never left. Have it occurred to you that during your most difficult times you only have noticed the trials because they affect you and have not seen us at all.

I am not yet done reading the book. But I'm so determined to finish it and read it all over again so I won't forget everything it said.

I felt loved when I read it. Its like Jesus is a character you will be so eager to know. Like a best friend instead of someone who judges. It is so full of love. Totally different from earthly love.

I recommend you to read it as well. It could change the way you handle your relationships with anyone.

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What a Monday ... and things getting in the way of my plans

Its the first work day of the month for me and my first day to change shift.
I didn't have so much sleep due to body clock changes.

I had another of those weird dreams. I wont tell you for now. Maybe in another blog.
Sorry I had to let this out. hehhehe...

My new colleague is handling US calls and she asked for my assistance on a query she initially answered on the phone. I wasn't aware the other person was freeky mad.
Well here was what the customer said. "Please give me to someone from Houston. I dont want to talk to a Filipino." She kinda said that in a loud and demanding voice.

I stuttered asking her to wait for some moment so I could look into our directory. Well she went like. " OMG not again. "

In some ways the customer's negative energy was transferred to me. That I had to listen to some soothing music to cool me down after I ended the call.

You know how I hated racist. Its not your fault you were born Filipino. Its not something one has a fault or a mistake of. Its just a genetic and geographical accident she was American and I was Filipino.

Well anyways I pity the person. How narrow were her views were on people.
I'm a great person to get to know too. Just too bad she didn't took the opportunity. LOL hhehehhe ... Thats me sour gripping.

Heheheh anyways emotions rised again when I heard of an approaching issue at work. Who will report to work on Christmas day and New Year. hehheeh. Well Im glad I knew this was an issue. At least I would be able to prepare my points. (important points just in case they forget what happened last year. ) lol...

When it comes to educated arguement I never back out. lol... Just that sometimes they think Im angry when Im saying my points and when I say it fast. I say it fast so I dont forget and dont miss anything.

Im planning or at least trying to get myself auditioned for a band gig on december this year and it so happened that I do the day shift. It should have been perfect.

Well, not until this issue came up. Until things aren't clear yet I'll have to calm down.

I really wanna make it to a band this time. I know this want is to teeny and I might be too old for this. But yeah... at least if in case I die I won't have to rethink I didn't do the things I love doing.

hehehhe... I wanna sing... I hope it works out this time... I really do hope.

Patching things ... heheheh

Ahmong sent me some sms on my phone. Patching up some unresolved issues we had.

Its good to have communication even no matter how geographically far you are from one another. Sometimes even if two people are physically near they can still be far from each other if they don't talk. I'm glad we talked things out.

He wants to marry me when things are ok with his siblings. I think I can wait for that. :) Its not too far really. Plus I need time to do the things that Id like to do before I get married.

:) All is good now. See you in the next blogs

Camery